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I am not me

Feels at least a bit happy as I get to be closer with my colleagues and they even persuade me to join their team building, just like some sort of trips for ice breaking. I'm still considering because I knew I won't work this job for too long so if my relationship with them getting closer and closer, I feel sad to leave the company too. The people there is very nice and friendly but I just don't like that job scope. Somehow, I chat alot with Dickson today and realize that he is actually quite a nice guy. Feels happy to know him as friend. Still, I'm always thinking about that incident and not concentrating when talking on the phone with customers too. Don't know why I feel I'm like so not myself anymore. I became very suspective nowadays and the self esteem on me is very low too. Although everything is settle but the hurt in me is still not recover yet. I seriously hate this feeling so much and here I'm emo again.

I'm alone

I'm very very very emo now. Why things aren't just going smooth like how it suppose to be- love, friends, job and money?? Why everything and everyone seems to like bullying me?? And how come I emo and I seriously don't know who to talk with and who to find?? I feel like I have been ditched by the whole world. Someone who I trusted him most and as long as he is there for me, regardless of anything that happen to me I will feel at least a warmth in my heart. I will think the God is fair enough for sending you to me but I think he is being so unfair now that he is taking everything from me. Even if its you, you will betray me and leave me.

SCB

I'm listening to those emo love songs and it makes me emo too. Miss you finally by Trademark is one of my favourite song and even I listen to it repeated times, it doesn't seems to be bored at all. I wondered if anyone heard a song named 爱情故事 by 孙耀威. That is one of my favourite songs too.

Last week was my 1st week training for the personal loan in Standard Chartered Bank (SCB) so next Monday will be my 1st day of work. I'm not nervous at all but maybe feel a little stress as it is telesales work which means each of us will be given a target and if we can't hit it, commission burnt. I really wish I'm an actual degree holder now so I can find a permanent job working as HR people instead of stressed in working sales. But actually, the thing that stress me most is still the remaining subject of SHRM. I'm feeling scared too as I did not attend Dr. Ang's classes because of the telesales work but no choice, I need to earn money to US.

By the way, I've got the US visa so it's confirm I'm going to US on 25th of June. It's actually very lucky for me to get the visa because alot of people who went to the interview on the day itself got rejected =) Supposingly our relationship will be quite lovey dovey because we could be able to meet each other in another 3 months time but it seems to turn in another way around. Most of the time, we quarrelled and I feel lack of love and caring from him too. I feel not appreciated too like I did my best to get the US visa and go work too to earn money to US but all I feel from you is just an inconsiderate gf who disturb you when you playing dota, partying and sleeping. Sometimes I feel I don't even worth a penny.

Graduation Project

FINALLY, I got my grade for graduation project. It is C+. I'm happy with the grade because I always thought I didn't do well for thesis and not like other students; every week they will meet their supervisors and asked for instructions on how to do their thesis but for me, I think I met my supervisor a few times only. My supervisor Dr. Ang is a super strict lecturer and damn stingy with marks so that's why I'm really happy even I just got C+ for it.

Thanks to Dr. Ang for being mercy to me and I hope you won't fail my SHRM also. Pleaseeeeee. Another person I need to thank to is Michelle. Thanks for helping me to report my case to relevant parties and also made requests to have my results be amended to the Exam Centre. Thanks again =)

I feel a bit relax as I don't need to worry about the grades for my graduation project so now, it left the US visa application and also SHRM finals for me to worry only. Bless me.

updates 2

Last Saturday, we girls went to The Hill intend to celebrate Ban's and Bobo's birthday. The place was just fantastic with nice scenery, nice food but average service. Overall, all of us are satisfied with the place and the meal.

Hope both of you really enjoy and once again happy belated birthday to you both!!

By the way, I've made an appointment for my US visa on 23rd of March and feel kinda anxious for it. Going to US is what I dream for most of the time and most important is I can meet my darling if I'm able to pass the visa application. But after seeing the disaster that happened to Japan, I'm quite afraid to go US as it seems like going to be the end of the world . The volcano in US (don't know which part) started to be active again, rumours saying that there will be moonquake on 19th of March because that is the day when the earth and the moon get to be nearest and don't know why it will relates to gravity and lead to disaster also. The earthquake + tsunami ruin the nuklear system of Japan so it will release those radioactive and pollute the air and still got lots and lots of rumours. In conclusion, staying in Malaysia should counted as the safest and if its really the end of the world, I wanna stay with my daddy and mummy.

Another thing is that FUCK HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE because until now, I still haven't get the grades for my thesis. The business department people said I will get my results in one or two weeks time but its already 3 weeks plus from now. Fuck la... I don't understand why it need to take so long for you idiots to give me my grade. Note: most important thing is, YOU JUST BETTER DON'T FAIL ME!!

Last thing I need to update myself is I've interview in Standard Chartered bank as personal loaner. Athough everything is not confirm yet but my friend said the possibility of them hired me and Mun Ling is quite high and if everything goes smooth, we will start our work on 21st of March. My resolution is to earn alot alot alot of money to US and may my visa be blessed that I'm able to pass it.

updates 1

For 1 month plus I never update my blog already but I guess is something not surprise at all because I'm just a person who is really lazy to touch my blog nor update my latest news to all. Hmmm.... Where should I begin?? Maybe just have a look of the photos first.

Feast with the Kung and Yap Family

Uncle Kung and Uncle Danny are my dad's best friends and I've known Uncle Kung's daughters since when I'm 7 years old. We use to hang out with each other every week in either my house or her house to chit chat, gambling, watching horror movies together and also travel around but when time flies, each of us are busy with our works and studies and it's been quite some time we never meet each other already. Glad to meet them on that day =)

Gordeok and lobster sashimi

The lobster

Mantis prawn (Lai liu ha)

The snail.. this is my favourite among all.

Spider Crab.. this crab costs rm750 and I think its not worth at all. Maybe because I'm not a crab lover so I find it normal and not as special as I expect.

Lobster fried rice: one of my favourite too

Auntie Kung, Mum and Auntie Amy

4 of us =)

Boring CNY

This year's CNY is totally boring and I've got no CNY feel at all except for mum and dad never rush me home when its too late because its CNY. I think if Eeyang is here, my CNY will be more happening because he will bring me together with him wherever he is going.

Chor 2 should be counted as the happiest day of CNY because I hang out with Chi Han. Rong Fu and friends. Chi Han is working in Singapore so it's been ages that I never meet him already. It's quite a surprise when I saw him turned up when Rong Fu said he is coming to my house to bai nian. Then later at night I meet up with my Surian gang for gambling and won RM200++.... HAPPY!!

As for today, my brother brought me for dinner along with his Surian friends. We ate Korean food again. Sometimes I feel quite sweet of my brother because he knew I love Korean food so that's why he asked me wanna follow him together or not. Some siblings they will rather have fun with their own friends instead of bringing their sister or brother along.