Friday, May 21, 2010

friends??

Its 4.50am now and I'm suppose to be done with my assignment or at least gone thru halfway of it since the due date is just tomorrow. But I just can't focus on doing it as there is something that comes provoke my mind.

The issue is that should we keep a border line between friends or you can just sacrifice yourself because of them? Sometimes I just feel like there are no friends forever. Friends mingled with you is just because of benefits or maybe sometimes when they are lonely so they need your companion but until when something happens which could do them harm, they can just betray you in order to save themselves.

Grew so tired for the issue of friends. Been bothering my darling and bitch for the same issue again and again. Tsk tsk... I know such friends are not fuckable but kind of feeling pity to loss a friend like that. Although each time I tell myself not to fuck them anymore but whenever they talk to me again or seek for my help, I'm being soft-hearted again.

I knew alot of people will question me of why do you have to be soft-hearted since you know they are being so fucked up. Maybe is just because they are my friends so I can't bear for being mean to them. My blog is not an open blog so reading this post should be all my close friends. Please don't question me who are them for I'm not going to tell. Thanks =)

Just forget bout that issue. Anyway, 4 more days and my baby darling Ee Yang is coming back. I really can't wait for it as there are so many issues arousing me now. I just wish its 25th May now so I can just fuck up everything and the only thing I do is just to be with him. I wanna go dating, go for a movie, go shopping and do whatever when I'm with him. Most probably on my birthday, we are going to Bali. I seriously never try that before to just celebrate it with my boyfriend only in such romantic places. We tried that in just going for trips like Beijing, Penang and Langkawi but not this kind of special occasions and somemore its my birthday. Hopefully mum will allow me to do that as I haven't seek for her permission yet. God bless me please... thank you!!

No comments: