FUCK YOU BITCH

THAT'S A VERY GOOD TRY.

I NEVER EXPECT YOU WILL SCOLD ME CUZ OF OTHERS AND THAT'S A BITCH SOMEMORE. JUST THINK WHAT YOU HAD JUST SAID AND I DON'T THINK I'VE GOT NO RIGHTS TO ANGRY ABOUT THIS.

DON FUCKING TALK TO ME AND I DON FUCKING WANNA TALK TO YOU ALSO!!

AND... FUCK YOU BITCH!!

From this moment I just want my Mun Ling dear to come back asap. It was such a bad experience for her and something happened which made her can't enjoy her trip. It was just a disaster. I thought after the disaster that happened to her in the airport, it will exchange for a wonderful trip to her but end up it came out in an unexpected way.

There is no way for her to be happy. Sigh...... First time travelling out of the country but end up with such a bad and unforgettable experience. Why la??????????????????

mun ling's disaster

At last, all those misunderstandings are settle. I'm just maybe too stubborn and kind of negative thinking sometimes. Feeling so hungry now but have to wait for 10pm only could have dinner with ah fai. Thats because Friday, Saturday and Sunday is mum's break.

By the way, Mun Ling is in China dy and she just manage on time to reach Air Asia. 12.40 departure and I think she reach there at 12.00pm. The crew told her if she's late for another 2 more minutes, she would not be able to check in.

But this was really a bad experience for her. The luggage courier was full and she could not bring her luggage to China. She could just pack some stuff to her bag for she didn't bring any hand carry luggage bag with her. And that silly girl, no one tell her that she could not bring any liquid type which more than 100ml to the plane and the staff there wanna confiscate all her skin care product which worth about rm1000 and more.

She was so rage and scolded the staff but also have to call her mum to come back and take her products home. I was so worried at first when she told me about her disaster and ask me how. Anyway, this is her first experience to travel alone and it is really a very bad experience for her. But come to think of it, I found it quite funny.

Hope you enjoy the trip, my dear friend. I started to miss you already =( Luckily it is just 1 week.

All about I

Am I too stubborn? Or am I too ego to let go everything? Kept thinking about the same thing again and again, it never leaves my mind empty or has a bit of rest. I wanted so much to forget everything that happened between me and you but I knew it very well of after everything had happened, the relationship between me and you will not be like before.

I know I'm too stubborn that these little things can be mend but if all little things grew together, it's not that little thing anymore. I just feel we've got too much issues and misunderstandings. I really don't feel like facing you or anyone. I kept thinking of just let me cool down for a couple of days and I'll be alright but the feeling of hurt and disappointment is still within me.

I'm so confused with this feeling and mindset of thinking which I never encounter before. By the way, have to say thanks to bitch for after talking to her; I felt better.

I realized if compare to me in high school and now, it's like totally 2 different people. I feel like I'm not myself anymore. I won be so negative thinking in the 1st place and I will definitely voice out my problems and unhappiness instead of keeping it all to myself or lock myself at home for a couple of days.

Honestly, I still feel the hurt and disappointment and even when you send the apologize message to me, I felt like a thorn came out from nowhere all of a sudden pricking into my heart. I know things can be solved but I'm just too stubborn. I don't know why I'm taking it so serious for this time. I still need some time.

my stupid emotions

I'm in freaking bad mood now. I know sometimes my temper will lead to alot of dislikes and embarassment but I really could not control my emotion sometimes. I knew not many people could tolerate my temper and there is only a few of them could do that.

I'm just sorry for my emotions to all my friends and there are alot of things for me to stress nowadays. Went yamcha with ah fai and mun ling yesterday with our laptops and come across to the horoscope websites. Its quite accurate of their predictions. It says that horoscope for cancers suppose to be cheerful and happy but if they got something to stress with, they will turn to another kind of characteristics.

I realize I change alot these 2 years if compare to last time. I became very quiet, kept thinking of the negative sides all the while and not cheerful anymore. Last time if I'm not unhappy, angry or stress; I will just voice it out to my friends or my dearest but now, I would rather keep everything to myself instead of telling it out.

Sometimes I wish that I could just get married and be a happy little wife without any stress into it. Haha!! But this is just a wild imagination, it can never be ful-fill by now.

Flaws

I love you is because you could tolerate my temper and also the bad habit for a girl but I realize there is something that I won't be able to change it. My biggest flaw to you.

I felt a loss of confidence in myself. It makes me feel so down. Maybe I'm kind of over sensitive but I don't feel good on hearing that joke.

I think sometimes you are right that we should not talk on the phone always. However, talking to me is just your responsibility. It is not because you miss me so you feel like talking to me when I'm on the opposite way.

Can I try on not calling you too often?? I hope I can.