deep sigh

Is Christmas Eve today but I think I'm not going anywhere. Went yamcha with bitch just now and she count for me that there's only 12 days left. Wow... I'm feeling the stress all over me now.
I hate my lecturer DR. ANG ENG SIENG. Damn... she din even bother to supervise me at all and she is so stingy in marks. Honestly, I'm not afraid that I can't complete for the thesis. I'm just afraid that she will fail me.

Hmmm.. Mun Ling decided not to work for that job already. I'm glad that she knows how to think at last but there is still a gap between us. I don't know why I can't open my heart to her anymore and I can sense the same thing goes to her which that she is not opening her heart also. Screw it first... I really got no time to think about it. Darn... I feel so lazy to do that thesis now.

Ohh.. I got alot of pimples start coming out already *deep sigh*. By the way, I miss that stupid darling now. There is no internet connection in the place he stays so he can't online. I can't call him too often because he will feel inconvenient to talk to me also. Hmmm... Hate You.

Tong Zhi>??

I'm quite good girl today on concentrating doing my thesis. I feel so stress as it is lack of time now. Due date is on 4th of January. Hmmmmmmmm

I feel very unhappy today also. Today is Tong Zhi Festival and the definition of this festival is for reunion and build stronger relationships within lovers and friends. But someone is being so fucked up to me.

I'm emo again just now.

Hehe!! But seems like I blamed on the wrong person. He is not that fucked up only so I forgive him now. But still, I decided not to call him unless he ask me to do so.. Hmph

Happy Birthday to Brother!!

Is my one and only brother's birthday today.

Happy Birthday to you Mr. Lee Wei Hau

and may you be blessed with joy, love, happiness and being successful in your career.

I L O V E Y O U ! !

Notes to you: Sorry for being bad temper to you these few days and thanks for being such a good brother to me. I'm glad that both of us don't really look like brother and sister but more to a friend who we can share our problems, happiness, sadness and being supportive to each other.

Once again, I LOVE YOU!!

so-called productive

I thought I am productive today to do my thesis but end up after writing 1 paragraph and I login to facebook and to my blog again. =.=" Facebook demotivates me. I think I should somehow deactivate my account for 3 weeks but is difficult for me to do so because I like to see people's post and links..... hmmmmm!!

By the way, Darling is now on his way to airport and will be flying to Atlanta in 2 hours time. I miss him. Its already a habit of me to call him from the moment I wake up and talk to him on msn for few hours of my daily routine and problems; or even if both of us are not talking to each other when he doing his stuff and I'm doing mine but I still happy on seeing him online. The feeling is just like he is accompanying me. So, I will miss him alot when he is in other places because I can't possibly call him all the while and asking him to chat with me on msn. He should have fun with his friends and enjoy the trip. Is ok and fine for me because I love to see him being enjoy and happy with his trip also. Its a 3 weeks trip for him and he is bringing his laptop with him this time =)

Went yamcha with my another bestie (Ah Fai) and I'm glad that he understands me and eventually supports me. So, I'm pretty sure I'm right for doing this. Hong called me just now and I choose not to pick up. I'm not sure what is he gonna tell me or talk to me but I'm not in a debate mood. I know is wrong for blaming him because its my friend's fault of doing so but, at this moment I just couldn't help myself with this attitude towards him now. Ok... maybe in future I will feel better with it.

Hmmm.. I'm quite active in my blog for these few days =)

That's all for today.. Toodles~~

I move on

Suddenly woke up at 4am cause of nose bleeding and now there are stains of blood on my pyjamas =( I think maybe is because i drink less water. From the moment I woke up I felt dehydrating.

I dreamt of she just now that we settle our problems but the feeling is still kind of weird even if its just a dream. This issue just arouse me for every single moment when I'm not doing anything. I've been thinking this issue everytime when i wake up or before i sleep. I'm stubborn I guess. I don't want to repeat the same thing like after I forgive or settle her problem already and there it goes again.

I read through those old archieves in my blog and actually realize it is a good thing to write your feelings or experiences inside the blog. Sometimes when you are bored you could just click back your old memories and experiences and recall back of the happy and sad moments. I should be more hardworking to be an active blogger.

Nahhh... I always said that but end up few months only update once.

Some post are for her and I remember we did argue for few times and each time I'm pretty emo and wrote on my blog. I cherish this friend alot and I don't want to lose her because of petty things. But this time, I don't really feel emo to lose her anymore. Maybe is kind of wasted to lose a good friend but there are no such thing as friends forever. Life still moves on.

B.E.T.T.E.R

Just had around 2 and half hours phone conversation with EeYang and I feel happy with it. I love the way when he listen to me patiently and consult me of all of my problems. But sometimes he don't when he is playing dota and will just like entertaining me with OOOHHH. He being guai guai today =)

I finally realize I'm wrong for being so harsh to her. Sometimes when you just don't agree to something but you may not need to be so harsh on saying some hurtful words. You can just avoid the topic or saying other things.

However, I knew I'm wrong for saying hurtful words but that don't change my mind on we are not like last time anymore. Its really hard for me and I could not accept that. MAybe I choose to ignore her things because I don't want to get myself involve or making ownself being so hurtful like now again. As EeYang said, right.. both of you could not be like last time but maybe as friends lo.. just avoid the topic but not avoid her. I felt better after talking to him, at least I will be more opened to her and not that hurtful and unhappy like yesterday.

Today I gotta dinner alone again =( ARGHHHHHHHH... STRESS THESIS STRESS THESIS THAT BUGGING ALL OVER ME NOW.

Because of her case, I already feel no mood to touch or do it for so many days. I swear I need to complete 1 chapter today.

THESIS PLEASE GO AWAY. I STILL WANNA FLY TO US but with you here, I can't concentrate on applying visa =(

GRRRR

I knew I'm wrong when he trying to comment me and I lose my temper but I'm just so frustrated. Why can't he be a little bit supportive to me? Maybe a little bit when I'm feeling so sad.

Whats wrong when I'm saying hurting stuff? So which means is better for me to be sarcastic when I'm in such a fed up condition?? Like what?? "No la... We are still friends and I still care for you no matter what?" My fed up condition is after so MANY YEARS and I finally fed up. Do you understand? I bet you won't. Maybe I'm being so harsh to her is because I'm trying to tell her there is always a price to pay for what you did.

And you.. stop asking me to change this and change that.

I'm even more unhappy now. Bitch... I just left you and I love you.

Friendship X forever

There is something happened today which make me feel so hurt and disappointed. After all things that happened last time and after all the consultation I given it to you but in the end you still choosing back the same pathway. It do hurts me.

Somehow, I feel regret now for being so worry when you decided to go China and keep consult you to stop you from going there. Honestly, I'm regret. I should not say so many things to you and just to let you bang the wall yourself. What for like making myself feel so hurt now but on the other way you still doing the same thing?

Sorry to say that but there surely will have changes on our friendship and we no longer like last time. We won't talk about our own things anymore because I won't fucking care of whatever shits that happen to you and for my stuff, you need not know either. I will still hang out with you as friend like just to gossips bout other stuff like some big news such as Alviss Kong's news or big news from newspaper like South Korea in war with North Korea. Yeah, these are what we going to talk about in future.

Now I understand is difficult to have friends forever. There is no such thing. I asked my bitch why I need to have such big reaction and be so mean to her? Is just fucking not related to me but why do I need to feel so hurt? Am I wrong for doing this like being mean to her? Luckily I still got my bitch with me, she consulted me and she said is normal to act like that. If I'm like that, bitch will do the same thing to me also.

MY LOVELY BITCH- THANKS GOD YOU ARE NOT LIKE THAT AND THANKS THAT I STILL HAVE YOU WITH ME!!!

We are in a different pathway, a different point of view and diffferent destinations. In future, don't ever come to me bugging me or crying to me because i swear I will just fucking ignore you and tell you that you deserve for it. IS ALL NOW FUCKING NONE OF MY BUSINESS!!

Old updates- Fantastic dinners when I'm with him

RAKUZEN

I remember we came here to celebrate our 1 and half year anniversary. Heard that the food here have good ratings so we came out to try. Two thumbs up for this restaurant, its value for money= price reasonable but average service, food is really fastastic and delicious.

Rakuzen in Chulan Square- opposite Pavilion

My love <3

After dinner

My beef tepanyaki set

Darling's cod fish set

Salmon sashimi- <3<3

Stamina roll <3<3


This is beef too.. aww, i miss it. Although it is not as nice as the wagyu in Hajime restaurant but if i watch out for my wallet I would rather have this. This is just simply delicious

GOBO UPSTAIRS BAR AND GRILL

Gobo is in Trader's Hotel and is divided to two parts- the upstairs one is for fine dining while the downstairs is Gobo chit-chatz meianly for buffet. We went there to the upstairs to celebrate my birthday just both of us.

The open kitchen- maybe.. I'm not too sure.

The way to downstairs.

Stupid BOO

Sirloin or Rib eye???

Either Sirloin or Rib eye but both the meat were so juicy and tasty.

Lobster soup- this is actually quite nice. But to me, I feel it is kinda delicious for the first few scoops but kind weird when you continue drinking it.

I think I accidentally deleted picture of my wild mushroom soup. I think it is better than lobster soup.. hehe!! =)

He ordered red wine too and this is when we are too bored waiting for food.

He thinks he is cute =.="

Sometimes he is cute ^^

I heart him <3

I'm missing him

Darling went to Vegas yesterday and he will only be back on Sunday. Although we are long distance so is the same on whether he is in which part of US because he is not in Malaysia but, I still miss him. Maybe that's because I will switch on my laptop when I wake up to see whether he is online or not and message him DARLINGGG but he is not bringing his laptop to him in Vegas so will not online these few days.

I don't feel like calling him cause he will be playing around there and felt I'm like a disturbance if I kept calling him. Hmmm... anyway, wish that he has an enjoyable trip in Vegas because he will be moody if he is bored and don't naughty naughty there but I 99% trust him that he won't. He is a good good darling. Muacks.. I miss you!!

BLANK

I've got a very important project to do but my mind is so blank now. I don't know how to start it and where to start. It is just a phobia to me when the thought of doing this project cross my mind. Maybe because my supervisor is Dr. Ang so she is already the greatest pressure to me.

Each time I'm giving myself excuses for not touching the project because I'm really so scare to face it. Well, I know thats also the excuses for me to admit I'm actually lazy to deal with that idiot project. But how? All I want is just to graduate and no more studying for me. That's enough but in the mean time, I'm so lazy to start up with my graduation project.

Why the hell we have to do graduation project?? Got all distinctions or credits for all subjects and thats it, WE GRADUATE. Graduation project for what? Izzit an extra subject for you HELP College to earn extra money from we students?? Gosh... really damn pissed off with it.

old updates

Hmmm.. I really think I'm such an unactive blogger. These old updates are memories of me and Ee Yang when he came back to Malaysia for the 3 months. Now, he leave to US for almost 3 months already and only I start updating the photos =.="

Malacca Trip

The beginning of the journey.

Dinner in Portugese village.

Food we ate- oysters. The size is double size of those oysters we ate in Jogoya. Thus, the taste is awful. Its not really fresh and is kind of weird.

Elephant snails- this is still acceptable.

Spicy sotong cooking in Portugese style- normal as we can eat this in KL also.

The name of this ugly thing is the King horse shoe- this is an extremely disgusting thing and the taste is so awful.

The meat looks like this- disgusting right?.

Malacca cruise- but actually is just a boat for us to ride on and wander around the area of Malacca to look at the places and night view there.

The ticket was just RM10 for each person and by the time we riding on this boat its already 11pm so there's only 2 of us on the boat and the feeling was quite romantic with some light and relax music display on our ride.


Some heritage building on the jonker street.

Our Nyonya meal.

Fatty eating =P

The end of our enjoyable trip.

When we reach Ee Yang's house, we found these mushroom cover with bacterias inside the refrigerator. Although its disgusting, but I feel curious on those bacterias so I kept looking at it.

FUCK YOU BITCH

THAT'S A VERY GOOD TRY.

I NEVER EXPECT YOU WILL SCOLD ME CUZ OF OTHERS AND THAT'S A BITCH SOMEMORE. JUST THINK WHAT YOU HAD JUST SAID AND I DON'T THINK I'VE GOT NO RIGHTS TO ANGRY ABOUT THIS.

DON FUCKING TALK TO ME AND I DON FUCKING WANNA TALK TO YOU ALSO!!

AND... FUCK YOU BITCH!!

From this moment I just want my Mun Ling dear to come back asap. It was such a bad experience for her and something happened which made her can't enjoy her trip. It was just a disaster. I thought after the disaster that happened to her in the airport, it will exchange for a wonderful trip to her but end up it came out in an unexpected way.

There is no way for her to be happy. Sigh...... First time travelling out of the country but end up with such a bad and unforgettable experience. Why la??????????????????

mun ling's disaster

At last, all those misunderstandings are settle. I'm just maybe too stubborn and kind of negative thinking sometimes. Feeling so hungry now but have to wait for 10pm only could have dinner with ah fai. Thats because Friday, Saturday and Sunday is mum's break.

By the way, Mun Ling is in China dy and she just manage on time to reach Air Asia. 12.40 departure and I think she reach there at 12.00pm. The crew told her if she's late for another 2 more minutes, she would not be able to check in.

But this was really a bad experience for her. The luggage courier was full and she could not bring her luggage to China. She could just pack some stuff to her bag for she didn't bring any hand carry luggage bag with her. And that silly girl, no one tell her that she could not bring any liquid type which more than 100ml to the plane and the staff there wanna confiscate all her skin care product which worth about rm1000 and more.

She was so rage and scolded the staff but also have to call her mum to come back and take her products home. I was so worried at first when she told me about her disaster and ask me how. Anyway, this is her first experience to travel alone and it is really a very bad experience for her. But come to think of it, I found it quite funny.

Hope you enjoy the trip, my dear friend. I started to miss you already =( Luckily it is just 1 week.

All about I

Am I too stubborn? Or am I too ego to let go everything? Kept thinking about the same thing again and again, it never leaves my mind empty or has a bit of rest. I wanted so much to forget everything that happened between me and you but I knew it very well of after everything had happened, the relationship between me and you will not be like before.

I know I'm too stubborn that these little things can be mend but if all little things grew together, it's not that little thing anymore. I just feel we've got too much issues and misunderstandings. I really don't feel like facing you or anyone. I kept thinking of just let me cool down for a couple of days and I'll be alright but the feeling of hurt and disappointment is still within me.

I'm so confused with this feeling and mindset of thinking which I never encounter before. By the way, have to say thanks to bitch for after talking to her; I felt better.

I realized if compare to me in high school and now, it's like totally 2 different people. I feel like I'm not myself anymore. I won be so negative thinking in the 1st place and I will definitely voice out my problems and unhappiness instead of keeping it all to myself or lock myself at home for a couple of days.

Honestly, I still feel the hurt and disappointment and even when you send the apologize message to me, I felt like a thorn came out from nowhere all of a sudden pricking into my heart. I know things can be solved but I'm just too stubborn. I don't know why I'm taking it so serious for this time. I still need some time.

my stupid emotions

I'm in freaking bad mood now. I know sometimes my temper will lead to alot of dislikes and embarassment but I really could not control my emotion sometimes. I knew not many people could tolerate my temper and there is only a few of them could do that.

I'm just sorry for my emotions to all my friends and there are alot of things for me to stress nowadays. Went yamcha with ah fai and mun ling yesterday with our laptops and come across to the horoscope websites. Its quite accurate of their predictions. It says that horoscope for cancers suppose to be cheerful and happy but if they got something to stress with, they will turn to another kind of characteristics.

I realize I change alot these 2 years if compare to last time. I became very quiet, kept thinking of the negative sides all the while and not cheerful anymore. Last time if I'm not unhappy, angry or stress; I will just voice it out to my friends or my dearest but now, I would rather keep everything to myself instead of telling it out.

Sometimes I wish that I could just get married and be a happy little wife without any stress into it. Haha!! But this is just a wild imagination, it can never be ful-fill by now.

Flaws

I love you is because you could tolerate my temper and also the bad habit for a girl but I realize there is something that I won't be able to change it. My biggest flaw to you.

I felt a loss of confidence in myself. It makes me feel so down. Maybe I'm kind of over sensitive but I don't feel good on hearing that joke.

I think sometimes you are right that we should not talk on the phone always. However, talking to me is just your responsibility. It is not because you miss me so you feel like talking to me when I'm on the opposite way.

Can I try on not calling you too often?? I hope I can.

kin kin

Hi dear, I've got so much memories that I need to upload and post to my blog but the thing is I haven't buy card reader yet and got not much time to update my news. So, I will have to do this later.

Quite busy and stress recently of my studies, research project and also my graduation project which made me feel so exhausted of these. So wish that I could graduate faster and go on with my plans.

By the way, Ee Yang has gone to US for more than 1 week. This time I'm not as depress as before and could actually accept and cope with the days when he was not here. But of course sometimes I really miss him so much just like now.

Really miss the feeling of hugging you, kissing you and kin kin you. Muacks <3

down down down

My feeling is so down now. Even the case has nothing to deal with me but I'm feeling like so down also. Just feel like I'm taking a big responsibility for all these stuff. I don't like this feeling.

Could you just behave yourself for just once and please think of the consequences first before you do it?

sushi??

Yayyy... I manage to control my temper this time when I beh song him for something. What Mun Ling said is true, sometimes I should respect him and instead of just tulan and lose temper; its better to keep quiet and calm down myself.

Anyway, went to try this Go Sushi which is the new Japanese restaurant that open just nearby my house. One word to describe it, FAIL. The food was quite expensive if compare to Sushi King, Sushi Zanmai and Sakae Sushi as well. The cawan mushi is not smooth enough and it did not melt to your mouth straight when you taste it, the dinner set and also the sushi taste normal and i think sushi in Sushi Zanmai is better than it. I'm not trying to be mean but that's the first and last time for me to have my meal in this Go Sushi.

Lost Month

Really thanks for the advice that my babes gave. The problems between me and Ee Yang has settled temporary for I don't know when there will be other problems arise again.

I knew its not good for a couple to argue almost everyday and it will easily make both of us feel tired of each other. I tried to control my temper and emotions and he did compromise as well so our way of communication is much better than before =)

Another thing which make me headache is that, I don't know why nowadays there are so many things lost in my own room. I don't know is whether my room being too messy or I forgot where I put my things or maybe I left it somewhere else or accidentally thrown it away.

Tell you, I lost my calculator, my watch, ear rings, San Francisco Coffee House voucher worth RM40 and before that I lost my handphone. Its totally a WOW for me as I really lost so many things in these 2 weeks. Lost Month I guess so.

So now, I need to buy a new handphone budgeted for only RM500. I don't dare to buy any expensive handphone as I'm so absent minded with the things around me. As for my watch, don't know is there any surprise for my birthday?? *giggles*

hmmm

Sigh.. maybe I'm really too stubborn at times. I try my very best to control my temper and not to throw tantrums at him when he did something which frustrate me but sometimes its really hard to control my emotion and my temper.

Mun Ling ask me to control my temper and if it is just a little thing you can just tolerate it or using a better way to talk to him. I've tried it and things settle but the problem is he will just repeat the same mistakes. That is why nowadays little thing of him will just trigger out my temper and I felt so tired of it.

Maybe I should just control my temper, don be so pessimistic and not to be too stubborn on some issues.

Your Love Is Just A Lie

It is somehow ridiculous when you wish your gf will not tell any lies to you but yet you did so. You lie to me so many times because of that issue and I'm not going to trust on you anymore. I doubt on every words you say now.

Secondly, every promises of you are meant to be broken. Think yourself of how many times we went out dating ever since when you are back and what I wish to do, you will just do it with your friends. Yeah, i know. Meaning you just put your friends as your first priority but lying and entertaining me said you are not.

That particular issue has already ruin our relationship, my trust and our compromising to each other. Because of that issue, a little thing will just trigger out my dissatisfaction on you. Is that what you promise me of being a sweet darling and do all stuff together such as movie, swimming, dating, shopping and other stuff.

THAT ARE ALL LIES!!

Black Friday

Finally Ee Yang is back, things are just not running smooth as what I expected. We got into argument almost everyday and I almost grew tired of it already. Is just the biggest issue that trigger out all these arguments.

Worst thing of all is that I lost my hp today. Miss all my pictures, messages and also the videos so much =( is just something which could not be replace. Bad bad Friday!!

Apologize to darling

Tomorrow is the day which I longing for............ 25th of May!!

At last.......... but had an argument with him just now. Funny though. It is the day before he came back and we still got into an argument.

Honestly, that is my fault and I feel sorry bout it sincerely. I knew you feel disrespect and I'm like neglecting your feelings also. I'm sorry darling.

Apologize here sincerely and I really don't mean it.

13 MORE HOURS BABY... and i gotta see your face already. Miss you so much and hope we will have less arguments from now on. God bless please =)

friends??

Its 4.50am now and I'm suppose to be done with my assignment or at least gone thru halfway of it since the due date is just tomorrow. But I just can't focus on doing it as there is something that comes provoke my mind.

The issue is that should we keep a border line between friends or you can just sacrifice yourself because of them? Sometimes I just feel like there are no friends forever. Friends mingled with you is just because of benefits or maybe sometimes when they are lonely so they need your companion but until when something happens which could do them harm, they can just betray you in order to save themselves.

Grew so tired for the issue of friends. Been bothering my darling and bitch for the same issue again and again. Tsk tsk... I know such friends are not fuckable but kind of feeling pity to loss a friend like that. Although each time I tell myself not to fuck them anymore but whenever they talk to me again or seek for my help, I'm being soft-hearted again.

I knew alot of people will question me of why do you have to be soft-hearted since you know they are being so fucked up. Maybe is just because they are my friends so I can't bear for being mean to them. My blog is not an open blog so reading this post should be all my close friends. Please don't question me who are them for I'm not going to tell. Thanks =)

Just forget bout that issue. Anyway, 4 more days and my baby darling Ee Yang is coming back. I really can't wait for it as there are so many issues arousing me now. I just wish its 25th May now so I can just fuck up everything and the only thing I do is just to be with him. I wanna go dating, go for a movie, go shopping and do whatever when I'm with him. Most probably on my birthday, we are going to Bali. I seriously never try that before to just celebrate it with my boyfriend only in such romantic places. We tried that in just going for trips like Beijing, Penang and Langkawi but not this kind of special occasions and somemore its my birthday. Hopefully mum will allow me to do that as I haven't seek for her permission yet. God bless me please... thank you!!

17 more days

After for almost 9 months long distance, my darling is coming back in another 2 weeks time. Can't wait for him to come back. Just wondering what's the feel of hugging him and kissing him??

I know very well that I love him and I miss him so much but sometimes when I'm out with my friends and playing happily outside, eventually I will forgot that I actually have a boyfriend. Haha!!

I realized this darling and I don't like the feeling of forgetting you also. I think is because I realized about it so when now I'm out with my friends, naturally shadows of yours will be coming out from my mind and I felt sweet with just thinking of you.

Still got 17 more days and you are coming back. Can't wait for it and love you so much.

Muacks muacks <3

Sorry Sorry Sorry

Matta Fair is just on this weekend. Darling and I planned to go Bali together so I called him and tell him about this Matta Fair. He was not in the mood for the whole day so he can't give me a good response when I'm talking about this issue and it naturally leads me to a bad mood too.

Hate you and your emotional twist... hmph!!

Maybe there is another reason that makes me moody. Went to have lunch with my BFF today and said some hurtful things to her =(

I feel I'm quite a bad and inconsiderate friend sometimes. We have been talking about the same issue for more than 2 years but not coming out with any conclusion yet so I'm actually fed up of her at times. So now, she is making her decision on whether working here or China or Singapore.

So today I told her as a friend I already advice you and I'm done with my job. Just do what you want and that is your lifestyle, it is not mine. Why do you have to care on how we look on you?? I mean there is no such thing as friends forever seriously. When we grow older, each will have their different lifestyle and who knows 1 day we might become stranger or just hi-bye friends??

And I told her directly of I'm thinking she is quite stupid sometimes and she is not productive enough on not knowing what exactly she wants.

I think is quite hurtful of what I said seriously. I felt so bad after I told her these because I think as a friend I should stand at her point of view and be understanding of her situation but I'm tired of it.

I'm sorry =(

Lame post

Ohhh.. My blog is neglected again and its the same as my blog boutique. That's quite sad. Anyway, just due the hardest assignment ever on last Friday. Seriously, I've never been so stress over for an assignment. This is the first time I think and thanks God that's over.

Not much updated news as its been quite a long time I never go clubbing or attending any special occasions. Got a sudden feeling that I'm not a youngster anymore. 22 this year and I need to plan my future pathway accordingly.

Wei Hao should be quite surprise on seeing my post here as his little baby turn out into a mature girl already. Yeah.. I'm right here, I'm not a kid anymore although sometimes I act like I'm still but seriously I'm not.

Read this post again and think its quite lame for I don't know what to blog or write anymore so I just end it here.

Bad news

Its like 80% confirmed that Mun Ling will be going to China with Thim they all. Thinking of that, I already started weeping my tears now even she will be going there during mid of the year.

Seriously I really don't know how to past my days without her. Its like I already get use to call her out when I'm bored or stress or being emo. She is the only one who accompany me always whenever I need her or when she knew I'm in trouble or sick, she will surely straightaway come to my house and be there for me. When I feel like going clubbing or wanna play mahjong, she will be the one who accompany me too.

The feeling was like she is always there for me in whatever I do or whenever I need her. I still remember when Ee Yang gone to US, I've been very depressed but Mun Ling is always staying by my side to console me and cheer me up. There is once when I'm sick, I called her and she pick up my phone in a sleeping mode then I cried and told her I'm sick and feeling so suffer. She quickly get up from her bed, go brush her teeth and all and straightaway come fetch me intend to bring me to the clinic.

Can someone tell me where can I find another friend like her and how do I survive the days without her?? I really don't know. Why do all my dearest have to leave me?? I'm like all alone now. So sad =(

My Wishlist

My Wishlist for Year 2010

1.)

That's the Gucci bag I want badly. Mun Ling's aunt is in Milan now and the Gucci bags there are cheaper than here alot. Its not more than 1k or worth like 1k++ only. She is asking her aunt to help me to buy this bag. Hmm... waiting for her good news now... hehe!!

2.)

Actually I just want a new laptop. Not necessary a Vaio laptop but Vaio is more preferable =)

3.)

I phone 3GS. Oh myyy... I want it so badly.

4.)

That's my dream. Just want any accessories from Tiffany&Co.

5.) Looking for some nice high-waisted shorts and skirts

6.) A few more pairs of high-heels.

7.) A dinner gown and more clubbing dresses.

8.) New sunglasses and spectacles.

9.) Haha... Left out one more, a camera is what i need too.

Seriously if asking what I want most, I think will be the Gucci bag. Hope her aunt can get it for me.

Silly posing again

Kim Soon ask me for yam cha that night and on his way to come and fetch me, his car died down in the middle of the road near Leisure Mall there because of no petrol. Malu betulll =P

Luckily his friends were near Leisure Mall so he called his friends to buy him some petrol and end up I still scold him for being late. Eikkss... I feel I'm quite mean at sometimes.

But is because I don't know the whole story and he explained it to me. Then I can't stop laughing in the car. After pumped some petrol, we went to meet up Mun Ling and her ex Kam Loong. Both of them went to yam cha at Ice-cream House there so we went to meet them up. Listen, they are just friends, no affairs.

Mun Ling and I kept playing with Kam Loong's spectacles and start our cam-whoring.

Love his spectacles and I wanna buy a new specs which look something like this.

Happy New Year 2010~~

It's year 2010 now. Haha!! Spent my night at Gay Lou's house yesterday playing mahjong with the girls. We are suppose to go to Maison actually but thinking it will be so crowded there so we decided to stay back and play mahjong... kekekkeke!!

tiffANy~kit & BiBu Emily

Pics with Mr Loh Loong Wai. See his cute little face.

Now it's my time to write my 2010 resolutions:

1.) Be more hardworking for my studies, revisions and assignments.

2.) Aiming for at least credits for my remaining subjects

3.) Get a new laptop

4.) I want a Gucci bag

5.) Try my best to balance out my diet instead of being so skinny

6.) Spend more time with my family who showing their love and support to me always. I love y'all.

7.) Never neglect any of my friends. Thanks for being with me for all ups and downs that I've been thru. It is always a give and take. I promise that I will always be there for any of you when you need me.

8.) Have to change my attitude for not being so selfish, so bad temper, be more patience and not being so ego.

9.) Chow Ee Yang has to change his attitude for not being so hot temper, be more gentle, be a good listener, be more patience and love his gf always. Tender her, care her and cherish her =P

10.) May this year will be a great year and everything will go smooth for me, my family, my darling and all my friends.

Wei Hao sent me a message yesterday and I felt quite happy after receiving it.

Baby. Happy New Year. Last year there's alot of up & down. I hope that this year everything will go smooth for you. I wish to see more lovely smile on you.

Thanks for always supporting me for those ups and downs that I've been thru. Really happy to have a friend like you and I will always appreciate it.