deep sigh

Is Christmas Eve today but I think I'm not going anywhere. Went yamcha with bitch just now and she count for me that there's only 12 days left. Wow... I'm feeling the stress all over me now.
I hate my lecturer DR. ANG ENG SIENG. Damn... she din even bother to supervise me at all and she is so stingy in marks. Honestly, I'm not afraid that I can't complete for the thesis. I'm just afraid that she will fail me.

Hmmm.. Mun Ling decided not to work for that job already. I'm glad that she knows how to think at last but there is still a gap between us. I don't know why I can't open my heart to her anymore and I can sense the same thing goes to her which that she is not opening her heart also. Screw it first... I really got no time to think about it. Darn... I feel so lazy to do that thesis now.

Ohh.. I got alot of pimples start coming out already *deep sigh*. By the way, I miss that stupid darling now. There is no internet connection in the place he stays so he can't online. I can't call him too often because he will feel inconvenient to talk to me also. Hmmm... Hate You.

Tong Zhi>??

I'm quite good girl today on concentrating doing my thesis. I feel so stress as it is lack of time now. Due date is on 4th of January. Hmmmmmmmm

I feel very unhappy today also. Today is Tong Zhi Festival and the definition of this festival is for reunion and build stronger relationships within lovers and friends. But someone is being so fucked up to me.

I'm emo again just now.

Hehe!! But seems like I blamed on the wrong person. He is not that fucked up only so I forgive him now. But still, I decided not to call him unless he ask me to do so.. Hmph

Happy Birthday to Brother!!

Is my one and only brother's birthday today.

Happy Birthday to you Mr. Lee Wei Hau

and may you be blessed with joy, love, happiness and being successful in your career.

I L O V E Y O U ! !

Notes to you: Sorry for being bad temper to you these few days and thanks for being such a good brother to me. I'm glad that both of us don't really look like brother and sister but more to a friend who we can share our problems, happiness, sadness and being supportive to each other.

Once again, I LOVE YOU!!

so-called productive

I thought I am productive today to do my thesis but end up after writing 1 paragraph and I login to facebook and to my blog again. =.=" Facebook demotivates me. I think I should somehow deactivate my account for 3 weeks but is difficult for me to do so because I like to see people's post and links..... hmmmmm!!

By the way, Darling is now on his way to airport and will be flying to Atlanta in 2 hours time. I miss him. Its already a habit of me to call him from the moment I wake up and talk to him on msn for few hours of my daily routine and problems; or even if both of us are not talking to each other when he doing his stuff and I'm doing mine but I still happy on seeing him online. The feeling is just like he is accompanying me. So, I will miss him alot when he is in other places because I can't possibly call him all the while and asking him to chat with me on msn. He should have fun with his friends and enjoy the trip. Is ok and fine for me because I love to see him being enjoy and happy with his trip also. Its a 3 weeks trip for him and he is bringing his laptop with him this time =)

Went yamcha with my another bestie (Ah Fai) and I'm glad that he understands me and eventually supports me. So, I'm pretty sure I'm right for doing this. Hong called me just now and I choose not to pick up. I'm not sure what is he gonna tell me or talk to me but I'm not in a debate mood. I know is wrong for blaming him because its my friend's fault of doing so but, at this moment I just couldn't help myself with this attitude towards him now. Ok... maybe in future I will feel better with it.

Hmmm.. I'm quite active in my blog for these few days =)

That's all for today.. Toodles~~

I move on

Suddenly woke up at 4am cause of nose bleeding and now there are stains of blood on my pyjamas =( I think maybe is because i drink less water. From the moment I woke up I felt dehydrating.

I dreamt of she just now that we settle our problems but the feeling is still kind of weird even if its just a dream. This issue just arouse me for every single moment when I'm not doing anything. I've been thinking this issue everytime when i wake up or before i sleep. I'm stubborn I guess. I don't want to repeat the same thing like after I forgive or settle her problem already and there it goes again.

I read through those old archieves in my blog and actually realize it is a good thing to write your feelings or experiences inside the blog. Sometimes when you are bored you could just click back your old memories and experiences and recall back of the happy and sad moments. I should be more hardworking to be an active blogger.

Nahhh... I always said that but end up few months only update once.

Some post are for her and I remember we did argue for few times and each time I'm pretty emo and wrote on my blog. I cherish this friend alot and I don't want to lose her because of petty things. But this time, I don't really feel emo to lose her anymore. Maybe is kind of wasted to lose a good friend but there are no such thing as friends forever. Life still moves on.

B.E.T.T.E.R

Just had around 2 and half hours phone conversation with EeYang and I feel happy with it. I love the way when he listen to me patiently and consult me of all of my problems. But sometimes he don't when he is playing dota and will just like entertaining me with OOOHHH. He being guai guai today =)

I finally realize I'm wrong for being so harsh to her. Sometimes when you just don't agree to something but you may not need to be so harsh on saying some hurtful words. You can just avoid the topic or saying other things.

However, I knew I'm wrong for saying hurtful words but that don't change my mind on we are not like last time anymore. Its really hard for me and I could not accept that. MAybe I choose to ignore her things because I don't want to get myself involve or making ownself being so hurtful like now again. As EeYang said, right.. both of you could not be like last time but maybe as friends lo.. just avoid the topic but not avoid her. I felt better after talking to him, at least I will be more opened to her and not that hurtful and unhappy like yesterday.

Today I gotta dinner alone again =( ARGHHHHHHHH... STRESS THESIS STRESS THESIS THAT BUGGING ALL OVER ME NOW.

Because of her case, I already feel no mood to touch or do it for so many days. I swear I need to complete 1 chapter today.

THESIS PLEASE GO AWAY. I STILL WANNA FLY TO US but with you here, I can't concentrate on applying visa =(

GRRRR

I knew I'm wrong when he trying to comment me and I lose my temper but I'm just so frustrated. Why can't he be a little bit supportive to me? Maybe a little bit when I'm feeling so sad.

Whats wrong when I'm saying hurting stuff? So which means is better for me to be sarcastic when I'm in such a fed up condition?? Like what?? "No la... We are still friends and I still care for you no matter what?" My fed up condition is after so MANY YEARS and I finally fed up. Do you understand? I bet you won't. Maybe I'm being so harsh to her is because I'm trying to tell her there is always a price to pay for what you did.

And you.. stop asking me to change this and change that.

I'm even more unhappy now. Bitch... I just left you and I love you.

Friendship X forever

There is something happened today which make me feel so hurt and disappointed. After all things that happened last time and after all the consultation I given it to you but in the end you still choosing back the same pathway. It do hurts me.

Somehow, I feel regret now for being so worry when you decided to go China and keep consult you to stop you from going there. Honestly, I'm regret. I should not say so many things to you and just to let you bang the wall yourself. What for like making myself feel so hurt now but on the other way you still doing the same thing?

Sorry to say that but there surely will have changes on our friendship and we no longer like last time. We won't talk about our own things anymore because I won't fucking care of whatever shits that happen to you and for my stuff, you need not know either. I will still hang out with you as friend like just to gossips bout other stuff like some big news such as Alviss Kong's news or big news from newspaper like South Korea in war with North Korea. Yeah, these are what we going to talk about in future.

Now I understand is difficult to have friends forever. There is no such thing. I asked my bitch why I need to have such big reaction and be so mean to her? Is just fucking not related to me but why do I need to feel so hurt? Am I wrong for doing this like being mean to her? Luckily I still got my bitch with me, she consulted me and she said is normal to act like that. If I'm like that, bitch will do the same thing to me also.

MY LOVELY BITCH- THANKS GOD YOU ARE NOT LIKE THAT AND THANKS THAT I STILL HAVE YOU WITH ME!!!

We are in a different pathway, a different point of view and diffferent destinations. In future, don't ever come to me bugging me or crying to me because i swear I will just fucking ignore you and tell you that you deserve for it. IS ALL NOW FUCKING NONE OF MY BUSINESS!!

Old updates- Fantastic dinners when I'm with him

RAKUZEN

I remember we came here to celebrate our 1 and half year anniversary. Heard that the food here have good ratings so we came out to try. Two thumbs up for this restaurant, its value for money= price reasonable but average service, food is really fastastic and delicious.

Rakuzen in Chulan Square- opposite Pavilion

My love <3

After dinner

My beef tepanyaki set

Darling's cod fish set

Salmon sashimi- <3<3

Stamina roll <3<3


This is beef too.. aww, i miss it. Although it is not as nice as the wagyu in Hajime restaurant but if i watch out for my wallet I would rather have this. This is just simply delicious

GOBO UPSTAIRS BAR AND GRILL

Gobo is in Trader's Hotel and is divided to two parts- the upstairs one is for fine dining while the downstairs is Gobo chit-chatz meianly for buffet. We went there to the upstairs to celebrate my birthday just both of us.

The open kitchen- maybe.. I'm not too sure.

The way to downstairs.

Stupid BOO

Sirloin or Rib eye???

Either Sirloin or Rib eye but both the meat were so juicy and tasty.

Lobster soup- this is actually quite nice. But to me, I feel it is kinda delicious for the first few scoops but kind weird when you continue drinking it.

I think I accidentally deleted picture of my wild mushroom soup. I think it is better than lobster soup.. hehe!! =)

He ordered red wine too and this is when we are too bored waiting for food.

He thinks he is cute =.="

Sometimes he is cute ^^

I heart him <3