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I am not me

Feels at least a bit happy as I get to be closer with my colleagues and they even persuade me to join their team building, just like some sort of trips for ice breaking. I'm still considering because I knew I won't work this job for too long so if my relationship with them getting closer and closer, I feel sad to leave the company too. The people there is very nice and friendly but I just don't like that job scope. Somehow, I chat alot with Dickson today and realize that he is actually quite a nice guy. Feels happy to know him as friend. Still, I'm always thinking about that incident and not concentrating when talking on the phone with customers too. Don't know why I feel I'm like so not myself anymore. I became very suspective nowadays and the self esteem on me is very low too. Although everything is settle but the hurt in me is still not recover yet. I seriously hate this feeling so much and here I'm emo again.

I'm alone

I'm very very very emo now. Why things aren't just going smooth like how it suppose to be- love, friends, job and money?? Why everything and everyone seems to like bullying me?? And how come I emo and I seriously don't know who to talk with and who to find?? I feel like I have been ditched by the whole world. Someone who I trusted him most and as long as he is there for me, regardless of anything that happen to me I will feel at least a warmth in my heart. I will think the God is fair enough for sending you to me but I think he is being so unfair now that he is taking everything from me. Even if its you, you will betray me and leave me.

SCB

I'm listening to those emo love songs and it makes me emo too. Miss you finally by Trademark is one of my favourite song and even I listen to it repeated times, it doesn't seems to be bored at all. I wondered if anyone heard a song named 爱情故事 by 孙耀威. That is one of my favourite songs too.

Last week was my 1st week training for the personal loan in Standard Chartered Bank (SCB) so next Monday will be my 1st day of work. I'm not nervous at all but maybe feel a little stress as it is telesales work which means each of us will be given a target and if we can't hit it, commission burnt. I really wish I'm an actual degree holder now so I can find a permanent job working as HR people instead of stressed in working sales. But actually, the thing that stress me most is still the remaining subject of SHRM. I'm feeling scared too as I did not attend Dr. Ang's classes because of the telesales work but no choice, I need to earn money to US.

By the way, I've got the US visa so it's confirm I'm going to US on 25th of June. It's actually very lucky for me to get the visa because alot of people who went to the interview on the day itself got rejected =) Supposingly our relationship will be quite lovey dovey because we could be able to meet each other in another 3 months time but it seems to turn in another way around. Most of the time, we quarrelled and I feel lack of love and caring from him too. I feel not appreciated too like I did my best to get the US visa and go work too to earn money to US but all I feel from you is just an inconsiderate gf who disturb you when you playing dota, partying and sleeping. Sometimes I feel I don't even worth a penny.

Graduation Project

FINALLY, I got my grade for graduation project. It is C+. I'm happy with the grade because I always thought I didn't do well for thesis and not like other students; every week they will meet their supervisors and asked for instructions on how to do their thesis but for me, I think I met my supervisor a few times only. My supervisor Dr. Ang is a super strict lecturer and damn stingy with marks so that's why I'm really happy even I just got C+ for it.

Thanks to Dr. Ang for being mercy to me and I hope you won't fail my SHRM also. Pleaseeeeee. Another person I need to thank to is Michelle. Thanks for helping me to report my case to relevant parties and also made requests to have my results be amended to the Exam Centre. Thanks again =)

I feel a bit relax as I don't need to worry about the grades for my graduation project so now, it left the US visa application and also SHRM finals for me to worry only. Bless me.

updates 2

Last Saturday, we girls went to The Hill intend to celebrate Ban's and Bobo's birthday. The place was just fantastic with nice scenery, nice food but average service. Overall, all of us are satisfied with the place and the meal.

Hope both of you really enjoy and once again happy belated birthday to you both!!

By the way, I've made an appointment for my US visa on 23rd of March and feel kinda anxious for it. Going to US is what I dream for most of the time and most important is I can meet my darling if I'm able to pass the visa application. But after seeing the disaster that happened to Japan, I'm quite afraid to go US as it seems like going to be the end of the world . The volcano in US (don't know which part) started to be active again, rumours saying that there will be moonquake on 19th of March because that is the day when the earth and the moon get to be nearest and don't know why it will relates to gravity and lead to disaster also. The earthquake + tsunami ruin the nuklear system of Japan so it will release those radioactive and pollute the air and still got lots and lots of rumours. In conclusion, staying in Malaysia should counted as the safest and if its really the end of the world, I wanna stay with my daddy and mummy.

Another thing is that FUCK HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE because until now, I still haven't get the grades for my thesis. The business department people said I will get my results in one or two weeks time but its already 3 weeks plus from now. Fuck la... I don't understand why it need to take so long for you idiots to give me my grade. Note: most important thing is, YOU JUST BETTER DON'T FAIL ME!!

Last thing I need to update myself is I've interview in Standard Chartered bank as personal loaner. Athough everything is not confirm yet but my friend said the possibility of them hired me and Mun Ling is quite high and if everything goes smooth, we will start our work on 21st of March. My resolution is to earn alot alot alot of money to US and may my visa be blessed that I'm able to pass it.

updates 1

For 1 month plus I never update my blog already but I guess is something not surprise at all because I'm just a person who is really lazy to touch my blog nor update my latest news to all. Hmmm.... Where should I begin?? Maybe just have a look of the photos first.

Feast with the Kung and Yap Family

Uncle Kung and Uncle Danny are my dad's best friends and I've known Uncle Kung's daughters since when I'm 7 years old. We use to hang out with each other every week in either my house or her house to chit chat, gambling, watching horror movies together and also travel around but when time flies, each of us are busy with our works and studies and it's been quite some time we never meet each other already. Glad to meet them on that day =)

Gordeok and lobster sashimi

The lobster

Mantis prawn (Lai liu ha)

The snail.. this is my favourite among all.

Spider Crab.. this crab costs rm750 and I think its not worth at all. Maybe because I'm not a crab lover so I find it normal and not as special as I expect.

Lobster fried rice: one of my favourite too

Auntie Kung, Mum and Auntie Amy

4 of us =)

Boring CNY

This year's CNY is totally boring and I've got no CNY feel at all except for mum and dad never rush me home when its too late because its CNY. I think if Eeyang is here, my CNY will be more happening because he will bring me together with him wherever he is going.

Chor 2 should be counted as the happiest day of CNY because I hang out with Chi Han. Rong Fu and friends. Chi Han is working in Singapore so it's been ages that I never meet him already. It's quite a surprise when I saw him turned up when Rong Fu said he is coming to my house to bai nian. Then later at night I meet up with my Surian gang for gambling and won RM200++.... HAPPY!!

As for today, my brother brought me for dinner along with his Surian friends. We ate Korean food again. Sometimes I feel quite sweet of my brother because he knew I love Korean food so that's why he asked me wanna follow him together or not. Some siblings they will rather have fun with their own friends instead of bringing their sister or brother along.

I'm sleeping soundly just now until my hp rings and pop out with a Malay guy speaking to me on the phone asking: "You Lee Kit Yee ke?? Ku hantar bunga punya, boleh buka pintu??"

I stunned for a while at my bed thinking what bunga, then only I realize it might be flowers delivery from my darling. So I went out to open the door and saw a lovely bouquet of white roses with 24 stalks in it and also a pair of cutie bears. That's so sweet of him.

HAPPY 2 YEARS ANNIVERSARY DARLING!!

Happy 2 years anniversary

Announcement made: 1st of February 2011, with love; it's the 2nd year anniversary between me and Mr. Chow Ee Yang.

Dear Mr. Chow Ee Yang,

I am very happy to inform you that I have fallen in love with you since 01-02-2009. With reference on the date of 01-02-2011 which means today, I declare you the most honorable present is that I would present myself as a prospective lover to you.

Yours affectionately,

Lee Kit Yee

Sweet sweet?? Something I wish to tell you is that I've never been so certain of anything in my life until when I am with you. You have changed my internality in life and I feel grateful for that. I never thought that someone could love me like you do, but guess what? I love you that much too... hehe!!

tell me what should I work???

I don't like the feeling of slacking around like you don't even have a target of what to do or a goal achievement for you to achieve. My situation is like this which I suppose to graduate by this semester but too bad I got AE (Additional Exam) for 2 subjects which means I failed the finals and need to retake only the finals so I'm counted as in holidays for few months while waiting for the finals.

Within this period, it is unnecessary for me to attend class when I can self study on my own so that's why I'm looking for a job. But the most inconvenient part for me to look for a job is that I don't have an actual degree cert. Without an actual degree cert, what can I do? Yeah... internship maybe but I need to earn money to go to US so internship is definitely out. I got routes to work as personal loaner too but transport is a problem to me because mum might need the car in the morning and she will surely scold me for rejecting my dad's offer when he said he wanna buy a car for me. Not I don't want a car now but I will be going to US for like 2 months so the car will be abandoned when I'm in US and is quite a burden to me when I need to afford a car now. Sighhhh.....

Mun Ling offered me a job to be waitress at a sports cafe. Salary offered seriously is not too bad and the working time is from 4-12am. I can use the car during evening and mum can use the car in the morning and afternoon so transport problem is settled and at least I got a job for temporary better than I stayed at home and do nothing now but come to think of it, I'm a degree student but working as a waitress? Aren't I'm suppose to look for jobs which could do me benefits in future rather than working as a waitress? I really want to work in an office doing my HR work but which firm would employ an employee without a degree cert besides internship?? Big sighhhhhhh again......

Sometimes I missed those days when we are still studying without have to think of the future or think of what job u need to work for in future. After exam, we will hell scream "YAHOOO exam finished... where we gonna celebrate it?? Or which clubs are we heading to tonight?". We will come out with alot of plans on where to have fun or travel around. This is the first time I feel so stress after finishing exam =(

New Shaolin Temple

Went for movie with my family today and we watch this "New Shaolin Temple" movie which starring by Andy Lau, Wu Jing, Nicholas Tse and Jacky Chan. The moral of the story is quite meaningful which teach us people that we will regret one day if we are being evil and show no mercy to our friends or dearest. I rate this movie as average, not really that exciting but its not too bad either.

Before to movie, my dad and mum went to Isetan to see whether is there any suitable clothes for my dad while brother and I went to Jusco because my brother got RM250 Jusco cash voucher from his company. He bought some t-shirts and socks for only 80 cents and I bought a pair of high heels again for only RM7.90 after deduct the cash vouchers =)

I had this weird dream yesterday and in the dream, darling had affairs with another girl and we had a big argument. After that, it turns to another scenery and I'm in some sort of pasar malam with my ex beside me holding my hand. I feel so uneasy with it so I unloose his hand and look for my phone to call my darling but unfortunately, my phone left at somewhere else. At this time, I saw my another friend there and ask her to look for my hp with me so, my ex fetch us to the place where I lost my phone and at last I found my phone. Then my ex fetch us back to that pasar malam and he is holding my hand again in the car. Once he park his car, I saw Ve and Miechelle already and I was so surprise and ask why are they here? Then Ve suddenly said, "Thank you Chow Ee Yang" and I saw darling. I quickly open the door and ran out to hug him. The feeling was so wonderful and amazing from the moment I hug him which I can still feel it even when I woke up from my dream.

I just want to share this feeling inside my blog because friends may feel bored if I share such things to them. It also make me realize like no one could ever replace such feeling to me besides him <3

I Love Eeyang Chow

Just done with my new blog design. I've changed the background template and the font of my post. Thanks to blogger as it comes out with alot of different types of fonts for me to choose, something different I could said and I think my font is quite cute. Quite satisfied with my new blog design especially the font used and hope my beloved darling won't complain of my blog design being too dull or not creative or not nice.... Hmph!!

I just received the CNY hamper from Eeyang which he ordered it via online and delivered it to my house. My whole family including me were quite surprised when we received the hamper and I think my parents are quite happy too because they couldn't imagine that my bf has such a heart to greet them happy chinese new year. Note:

TO: LEE KIT YEE

Blessing Lee's family with a prosperous and healthy new years. Gong Hei Fat Choy!!

FROM: EEYANG CHOW

He makes me falling deeply in love to him. I love you Chow Ee Yang.

The lovely wrapped hamper. Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!

A??

I guess I'm being soft-hearted again this time. Sometimes I really don't know what kind of person am I. I always thought I'm a person who could stay firm with my own decision or thinking but seems like it is wrong and it happens to fail every single time.

1 or 2 months ago, this MR. A really did something which piss me off well and I knew it clearly that he has changed. He is not the Mr A which I knew last time so I told myself just screw him and don fucking care of something or someone which doesn't related to you. Afterall, is not my business at all so who cares of whatever that could happen to him?

But today, there is a conversation between me and his friend and I ask how is him? His friend told me there are alot of things happened which he is inconvenient to tell me now. I started to think of what has happened to him? How does he looks like now? Is he still alright after all shits that happened? Suddenly I feel kind of heartache on me.

I wanted to text him in fb to ask how is him but feel awkward to do so as I stay so firm in my own way of thinking in the last incident so, I guess I'm the kind of person who lets emotions control me instead of me controlling it. Therefore, I only can stay firm in my decision when I'm in rage.... arghhhhh, I don't like it but come to think of that incident again: I still think he is unforgivable but I still would like to know how is him now?

Ok.. that's the end of Mr A and now, I think is time to change the wallpaper and create a new decoration for my blog since I'm free now. But wait.... the saddest thing is that I still need to clean and tidy the stuffs in my room first =(

Eikksss... I think I forget to update the ulcer in my eye there. I got a big ulcer in my eye but not right straight to the eye ball. It is below the eyeball whereby when you pull your eyelid down, there's some red red nerves on it. Yup... its just right there. My eye is swollen because of the ulcer just like got a punch from nowhere and because of that I can't wear contact lens or make up until it recovers.

Another thing is that, I just had a simple layer haircut and dye my hair to ash brown colour. Not too bright and not too dark, just suitable for me perhaps? No camwhore for me... because I look freaking ugly with just my specs =(

Da On Pavilion

Hehe!! Went to Pavilion for dinner with my brother.. love him so much for taking me out eating Korean food again. I'm just craving for Korean food nowadays especially beef. Maybe that's because I just finish watching a Korean drama named My gf is Gumiho. Awww.... I love that drama so much and kept repeating it even I've finished watching.

However, this place "Da On" is not value for money at all. Our total bill is RM143.85 which I think is quite expensive for 2 person as Daorae is just RM160++ for three person and that time we ordered 3 kinds of meat somemore.

There are just 6 side dishes given in this Da On restaurant and normally other Korean restaurant will provide at least 8-9 dishes. My brother ordered some kind of stone pot rice where the taste of it is just average and I ordered a beef spare ribs soup served with rice. Darn... there are only 3 beef ribs in the soup and the soup is tasteless. Just like plain hot water but putting some beef ribs inside.

There is just one thing which I'm most satisfied with this restaurant is the charboiled marinated beef sirloin. That is really delicious and two thumbs up for that. Before that, my brother already gave me RM150 as extra money to buy clothes for CNY and he even bought a pair of high heels for me and now, he treated me Korean food again. Hmmm... really love him so much and lucky to have him as my brother.

PHOTOS OF THE DAY

Camwhoring in G2000 when brother trying the clothes in the changing room

I like this photo most out of so many I cam but the feeling of this pic is so not like me

Charcoal start burning for my beef <3

My brother <3

This is my love..mmmm... look at its fresh red meat

Almost done and ready to be eaten>> yummy yummy

Only 6 side dishes... SO STINGY

Da On Pavilion

Camwhore again after the meal. Hmmm..... I wish to cut my hair, it looks so ugly and I'm feeling kind of low self esteem when walking Pavilion. Other girls' hair look so fashioned while mine is so ugly =( After my exam, I will definitely do myself a nice haircut.

Once again... thanks to Mr. Lee Wei Hau =)

Useless of me

Went shopping with VE today.. bought a carlo rino's wristlet as is more convenient to clubbing plus I don't have any wristlet, bought 2 pieces of clothings for CNY, a clincher and skin care from Etude House. The salesgirl recommended me this conteur eye which have the effects on moisturizing, prevent from wrinkles and enlightened dark circles. She said is more effective than those anti dark circles essense and its only RM100 after discount so no harm trying and I bought make up base too. Simm is right that skin care and cosmetic products' money is a must to invest and could not save just because you think is unnecessary. I really hope that the conteur eye thingy works as my dark circles is getting more and more serious =(

Some unhappy things happened to Eeyang today and I feel sorry and useless for can't helping him or at least to make him feel better. I really feel I'm such a useless gf and my heart feel pain for it.

I longing to be your listener so that you could release everything out than stressing it yourself.

I wish to be a cell in your brain to know what are you thinking without have the need on you telling me on whats going on?

I seek to be a worm in your stomach to know what would you prefer me to do in such situation and in which way could I cheer you up upon seeing you being so upset but I can't do anything.

I want to be part of your heart to share your happiness and unhappiness rather than you keeping everything on your own, refuse to tell out but have to pretend like nothing happen in order to not making me worried.

I'm feeling even worried and useless when you are like that. Sighhhh...

I'm evil.. so?? like it??

The summarize conversation goes like this:

Why do you like me? My brother said he miss his ex because he love the way on how she manja him.. So if so happen we break up, will you miss the way on how are now??

Why? Why you wanna know if we really break up.. is like nothing to do with you also?? So if I miss you then you will be happy cause I miss you and I will be so sad la.... Why you so EVIL one??

WTF?? THIS IS SOOO KANASAI... After the freaking 2 years we are together and I'm just evil to you??

FUCK YOU

P.S: The pink is I'm being so sweet and the brown is you being so DULL

LD?? just screw it

Is not surprise of everyone doubting on my relationship when I told them I'm in a long distance relationship with my bf. I'm kinda confident on my relationship actually. I really believe both of us could stay firm to each other but now, it seems like me myself is doubting on that too.

I think I already expect a very little from him.. is just what a normal or every gf would expect. I just want to be the first priority, hoping that he will miss me often, call me often and is eager to talk to me. I don't like him partying too often and I just want to have a proper conversation. Is that a really difficult task for a bf to do so??

I'm tired but happy today because I'm done with my thesis presentation and things go well. But when I want to have a proper conversation with my bf, he says he is sleepy and tomorrow is the 1st day of school. It turns my mood off dramastically. Yeah aight, normally when he goes partying he can stays up till 6-7am but waiting for me when its 2 something am, he feels sleepy.

I did not simply merajuk and I don't think I'm too over to have such expectations. The answer is just he didn't try to stand on my shoes to think and right, I'm not his first priority. He feels bored of accompanying me.

Fuck it la then.... I should also social more and mix with more friends to fill up my time once after my exam.