Apologize to darling

Tomorrow is the day which I longing for............ 25th of May!!

At last.......... but had an argument with him just now. Funny though. It is the day before he came back and we still got into an argument.

Honestly, that is my fault and I feel sorry bout it sincerely. I knew you feel disrespect and I'm like neglecting your feelings also. I'm sorry darling.

Apologize here sincerely and I really don't mean it.

13 MORE HOURS BABY... and i gotta see your face already. Miss you so much and hope we will have less arguments from now on. God bless please =)

friends??

Its 4.50am now and I'm suppose to be done with my assignment or at least gone thru halfway of it since the due date is just tomorrow. But I just can't focus on doing it as there is something that comes provoke my mind.

The issue is that should we keep a border line between friends or you can just sacrifice yourself because of them? Sometimes I just feel like there are no friends forever. Friends mingled with you is just because of benefits or maybe sometimes when they are lonely so they need your companion but until when something happens which could do them harm, they can just betray you in order to save themselves.

Grew so tired for the issue of friends. Been bothering my darling and bitch for the same issue again and again. Tsk tsk... I know such friends are not fuckable but kind of feeling pity to loss a friend like that. Although each time I tell myself not to fuck them anymore but whenever they talk to me again or seek for my help, I'm being soft-hearted again.

I knew alot of people will question me of why do you have to be soft-hearted since you know they are being so fucked up. Maybe is just because they are my friends so I can't bear for being mean to them. My blog is not an open blog so reading this post should be all my close friends. Please don't question me who are them for I'm not going to tell. Thanks =)

Just forget bout that issue. Anyway, 4 more days and my baby darling Ee Yang is coming back. I really can't wait for it as there are so many issues arousing me now. I just wish its 25th May now so I can just fuck up everything and the only thing I do is just to be with him. I wanna go dating, go for a movie, go shopping and do whatever when I'm with him. Most probably on my birthday, we are going to Bali. I seriously never try that before to just celebrate it with my boyfriend only in such romantic places. We tried that in just going for trips like Beijing, Penang and Langkawi but not this kind of special occasions and somemore its my birthday. Hopefully mum will allow me to do that as I haven't seek for her permission yet. God bless me please... thank you!!

17 more days

After for almost 9 months long distance, my darling is coming back in another 2 weeks time. Can't wait for him to come back. Just wondering what's the feel of hugging him and kissing him??

I know very well that I love him and I miss him so much but sometimes when I'm out with my friends and playing happily outside, eventually I will forgot that I actually have a boyfriend. Haha!!

I realized this darling and I don't like the feeling of forgetting you also. I think is because I realized about it so when now I'm out with my friends, naturally shadows of yours will be coming out from my mind and I felt sweet with just thinking of you.

Still got 17 more days and you are coming back. Can't wait for it and love you so much.

Muacks muacks <3

Sorry Sorry Sorry

Matta Fair is just on this weekend. Darling and I planned to go Bali together so I called him and tell him about this Matta Fair. He was not in the mood for the whole day so he can't give me a good response when I'm talking about this issue and it naturally leads me to a bad mood too.

Hate you and your emotional twist... hmph!!

Maybe there is another reason that makes me moody. Went to have lunch with my BFF today and said some hurtful things to her =(

I feel I'm quite a bad and inconsiderate friend sometimes. We have been talking about the same issue for more than 2 years but not coming out with any conclusion yet so I'm actually fed up of her at times. So now, she is making her decision on whether working here or China or Singapore.

So today I told her as a friend I already advice you and I'm done with my job. Just do what you want and that is your lifestyle, it is not mine. Why do you have to care on how we look on you?? I mean there is no such thing as friends forever seriously. When we grow older, each will have their different lifestyle and who knows 1 day we might become stranger or just hi-bye friends??

And I told her directly of I'm thinking she is quite stupid sometimes and she is not productive enough on not knowing what exactly she wants.

I think is quite hurtful of what I said seriously. I felt so bad after I told her these because I think as a friend I should stand at her point of view and be understanding of her situation but I'm tired of it.

I'm sorry =(

Lame post

Ohhh.. My blog is neglected again and its the same as my blog boutique. That's quite sad. Anyway, just due the hardest assignment ever on last Friday. Seriously, I've never been so stress over for an assignment. This is the first time I think and thanks God that's over.

Not much updated news as its been quite a long time I never go clubbing or attending any special occasions. Got a sudden feeling that I'm not a youngster anymore. 22 this year and I need to plan my future pathway accordingly.

Wei Hao should be quite surprise on seeing my post here as his little baby turn out into a mature girl already. Yeah.. I'm right here, I'm not a kid anymore although sometimes I act like I'm still but seriously I'm not.

Read this post again and think its quite lame for I don't know what to blog or write anymore so I just end it here.

Bad news

Its like 80% confirmed that Mun Ling will be going to China with Thim they all. Thinking of that, I already started weeping my tears now even she will be going there during mid of the year.

Seriously I really don't know how to past my days without her. Its like I already get use to call her out when I'm bored or stress or being emo. She is the only one who accompany me always whenever I need her or when she knew I'm in trouble or sick, she will surely straightaway come to my house and be there for me. When I feel like going clubbing or wanna play mahjong, she will be the one who accompany me too.

The feeling was like she is always there for me in whatever I do or whenever I need her. I still remember when Ee Yang gone to US, I've been very depressed but Mun Ling is always staying by my side to console me and cheer me up. There is once when I'm sick, I called her and she pick up my phone in a sleeping mode then I cried and told her I'm sick and feeling so suffer. She quickly get up from her bed, go brush her teeth and all and straightaway come fetch me intend to bring me to the clinic.

Can someone tell me where can I find another friend like her and how do I survive the days without her?? I really don't know. Why do all my dearest have to leave me?? I'm like all alone now. So sad =(

My Wishlist

My Wishlist for Year 2010

1.)

That's the Gucci bag I want badly. Mun Ling's aunt is in Milan now and the Gucci bags there are cheaper than here alot. Its not more than 1k or worth like 1k++ only. She is asking her aunt to help me to buy this bag. Hmm... waiting for her good news now... hehe!!

2.)

Actually I just want a new laptop. Not necessary a Vaio laptop but Vaio is more preferable =)

3.)

I phone 3GS. Oh myyy... I want it so badly.

4.)

That's my dream. Just want any accessories from Tiffany&Co.

5.) Looking for some nice high-waisted shorts and skirts

6.) A few more pairs of high-heels.

7.) A dinner gown and more clubbing dresses.

8.) New sunglasses and spectacles.

9.) Haha... Left out one more, a camera is what i need too.

Seriously if asking what I want most, I think will be the Gucci bag. Hope her aunt can get it for me.

Silly posing again

Kim Soon ask me for yam cha that night and on his way to come and fetch me, his car died down in the middle of the road near Leisure Mall there because of no petrol. Malu betulll =P

Luckily his friends were near Leisure Mall so he called his friends to buy him some petrol and end up I still scold him for being late. Eikkss... I feel I'm quite mean at sometimes.

But is because I don't know the whole story and he explained it to me. Then I can't stop laughing in the car. After pumped some petrol, we went to meet up Mun Ling and her ex Kam Loong. Both of them went to yam cha at Ice-cream House there so we went to meet them up. Listen, they are just friends, no affairs.

Mun Ling and I kept playing with Kam Loong's spectacles and start our cam-whoring.

Love his spectacles and I wanna buy a new specs which look something like this.