Wednesday, March 18, 2009

feels heartbreak

today went singing k at the red box in gardens there with ve, miechelle and pei ling... ve said she is emo and ask me to accompany her... honestly, if not for her i'm lazy to go out as well... since darling left to beijing i rarely go out nowadays... after we check in only we knew that there isn't any stuff nor tidbits to eat... so we ask the staff there whether we could leave my ic here and go out to eat something 1st anot?? luckily its approve for doing so.... we went sushi zenmai as i'm craving for its salmon there and could meet my da bian (yea ling) as well.... after that, we went back for singing session again... ve and me were quite emo when singing some emo songs as she had some probs with her bf and i'm missing ee yang too much....

ee yang told me he was very tired after a long walk in the great wall of china and the wax museum there... he was very emo and mind full of me when visiting the wax museum since i love china history so much and the wax museum was all regarding bout the china history... hoping i was there with him... and yeah, thats what i wishing for too.... at night when we were in phone conversation only i knew my darling wasn't feeling well and vomit just now.... i'm so worried and seeing him like that my heart was like broken to pieces.... i should have put some medicine like panadol or flu medicine inside his luggage before he leave to beijing as ee yang is not the type of willing to see doctor when he is sick.... what a useless gf am i?? that was the 1st thing i blaming myself when i know he is sick and suffering there... the pathway in beijing isn't easy for him... he is alone all there without friends and family with him... just some relatives there taking care of him but how could his relatives comfort him when he is facing serious probs there.... just hope these few months could pass quickly.... darling, i'm always here with you no matter what happens and believe we could overcome all these together.... love you darling and hope u get well soon.....

love story by taylor swift: this love is difficult but is real...... don be afraid we'll make it out of this mess...................................