love is difficult but its real...

today got a bad news as most probably ee yang will be staying in beijing till the end of june, i got very emo at 1st and went to somewhere just to calm down alone... later when gay lou knows i'm alone there, immediately he came to find me and accompany me... not long afterwards, mun ling came also.... thought of it again, if i'm emo here there are still alot of friends came to accompany and comfort me but what bout ee yang?? he is alone all there without nothing.... he should be more emo and yet he still trying to hide his feelings and not making me worried bout him... this is the thing i dislike most.... he should just share out his problems instead of keeping it alone... men' dignity again i think =.="

when we were in the phone conversation just now, i talk alot of lame and stupid things to make him happy again... yayy!! i did it.... i guess he felt better and not as emo as before... our love maybe difficult but its real... the thing that makes me happy for now is just listening to his voice and staying at home waiting for him to online... although is just seeing him thru webcam, but i already felt satisfied enough... i love it when seeing his funny faces or making funny sounds, his laugh, his smile, his *bin zhui* and the face when he is serious in work... i'm not sure whether we will end in a tragedic way as how i did previously anot?? but for now.... i guess i just wouldn't give up into this relationship................

LOVE STORY by Taylor Swift (my fav. song)

Cause we were both young when i 1st saw you

I close my eyes and the flashback starts

I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air

See the lights,

See the party the ball gowns

I see you make your way to the crowd

and say hello, little did i know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles

And my daddy said stay away from Juliet

and i was crying on the staircase

begging you please don't go, and i said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess

It's a love story, baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you

We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew

So close your eyes

Escape this town for a little while

'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter

And my daddy said stay away from Juliet

But you were everything to me

I was begging you please don't go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story, baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they trying to tell me how to feel

This love is difficult, but it's real

Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting

Wondering if you were ever coming around

My faith in you is fading

When i met you on the outskirts of town, and i said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone

I keep waiting but you never come

Is this in my head? I don't know what to think

He knelt to the ground and pull out a ring

And said, Marry me Juliet

You'll never have to be alone

I love you and that's all i really know

I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress

It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh, oh, oh, oh

'Cause we were both young when I first saw you

and I Love You Chow Ee Yang.......